Merry meet everyone, I am here again with another great journal question that we should all answer for this month. What are we all looking forward to this month? For me personally this month is such a big month because not only is it my birthday month but also one of my nieces. Its the month of mabon and its were you start to see the leaves change to the new season. This month is also a big month for school goers because its the start of a new year for them. Now this may be slightly different than normal because of the virus that has been the main focus of this year. I am unsure if I can see my Nan yet while it may or may not be safe. I may be having a strange birthday were I can't actually spend time with the people I love. I am writing this post a month in advance so this may have all changed by then but I know I probably won't be able to go out for my birthday meal or going shopping in Liverpool with my nan because she has to self isolate, as she is over 70. So what am I personally looking forward to this month? Yes I am looking forward to my birthday but not in the way as I have been in the past. I am looking forward to my birthday because its a mile stone for the year. My birthday comes and goes which means the year is nearly over and may be next year will bring something better. I also love the idea of celebrating my birthday even though not like I normally do but because it should be a joyful time of the year. I am also looking forward to mabon because I love celebrating this sabbat. Its saying good bye to the ends of the summer and hello to my favourite season autumn which makes me smile. I personally don't know what the month will bring if its good or bad but I would love to see the bright side of the month and look at the good within the bad. What are you all looking forward to this month? Let me know on instagram @paganvibesonly as I would love to hear from you all. As always stay safe and I will see you all in the next post x Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, So here I am again with another journal question for you all to answer this week. Today's question is what do you love most about yourself and why? I like this question because it helps you understand and realise how amazing you are even if you don't feel it at this moment of time. I did this recently for a friend of mine because she was down and I listed everything she has achieved on her own and proved how amazing she really was and it cheered her up a bit. So I am going to be answering this question for myself but I do hope you all think about this question and answer it because it will surprise you how amazing you all are at this moment. So what I love most about myself is that fact I don't give up. I am stubborn that way.Through out my life I never bowed down on a fight and even when people tried to knock me down I would get back up and fight even harder. I am also someone you want on your side because I will help anyone who deserves it and I will do everything in my power to help that one person. I have found that sometimes it has caused me more heart ache than worth with people using that to hurt me. I wear my heart on show and I care about people so deeply that it is a blessing and a curse sometimes. I love that I will always put people in front of myself and that can also be a problem when I need to focus on myself more. I love how creative I am but I hate that I never have the time to really follow my passions. I love how amazing I am as a photographer and it brings me so much joy when others comment on it. I love showing people how I see the world and thats my way of coping. I do hope you all answer this question yourself because it does make yourself feel better. I do hope you enjoyed today's post and I will see you all in the next one. Don't forget to message me your answers on instagram @paganvibesonly. Stay safe everyone. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, Its that time of week again with another journal question to get you thinking. Today's question is what else are you enthusiastic about? For me I have so much I enjoy doing and great passions that makes me so happy. My faith is such a big one as you all must know my now. I centre my blog around it and helping others in a way I didn't have and I am such a big art lover. I am a creative person by heart, so writing, painting, photographing all brings me nothing but joy. My planner is another great passion of mine because I love being organised and making my week spreads pretty is always such a relaxing project to do weekly. Working in my book of shadows is another one that brings me nothing but happiness. I am passionate about mother earth and looking after her in any way I can and also helping others. I also love home schooling my nieces which I never thought I would say but I have really enjoyed doing that and it just showed me how much I would of loved to be a teacher. I wanted to be a teacher when I was younger but I didn't like how other student s were treating my teachers at the time and it put myself of becoming one. I am passionate about being outside within nature and also my cats is such a big part of my life. I love animals its just who I am. I have so many different things that I an enthusiastic about that I can't list them all down haha. Whats your answer to this question let me know in the comments bellow or through chat on instagram @paganvibesonly. I would love to see what you are all enthusiastic about. As always stay safe and I will see you all in the next post. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, So I am back again with another journal question for you all to answer this week. The question is what makes you feel positive? For me personally I have learned to be more positive because it was a way for me to get past what happened in the past. At this moment of time what makes me feel positive is working on my blog and seeing that I am still doing something worth while even if I am not in work. I am loving having the time to work on blog posts like this which has given me something to do while my partner works as hes a key worker I am stuck inside going stare crazy otherwise. I always make it my point to see the good around me and even though its hard at the moment and I have had some very low days it has helped me get through this so far. I also stay so positive because I need to. I need to stay that way to keep my nan from being low and if I get low then I could stay there and I don't want to be in that place again. I also get a boost when I weigh myself each week and see how much I have lost and gotten here just by will. That makes me feel so positive about everything else. I am still healthy and kicking up a fuss so thats making me love my life at the moment. I can clean and room and see how much better it looks and it makes me feel positive. Being within my altar area always makes me feel positive but then I believe mother earth is watching my back at this hard time because shes the one who pulled me out last time I was so low so shes keeping me on the right path. I think its just a way I have always kept myself from falling down the rabbit hole. I would love to hear how you are all keeping positive within these times because it is hard to do but so worth it for your health. If you do need anyone to talk to I am here and you can contact me any time through instagram @paganvibesonly. I am always just a click away and I am happy to cheer any of you up. I hope you answer this question in your journals this week because it may help you feel more positive just by doing it. Stay safe and I will see you all in the next post. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, So I am back again with another question to add to your journals. Today's question is what form of abundance would you like to bring in today? For me I would love to bring in abundance of peace. I would love to have my home settled down and calm. Everyone happy doing their bits and not worrying about whats going on outside in the world. I would also love to bring in a abundance of protection not just for my household but for all my loved ones too. It would put my mind at rest if I could do a protection bubble around everyone all the time because at least I have tried to do something to protect them thats within my power and control. I will most likely do a blessing later on today to mother earth to keep my loved ones safe because I feel the pull to do one at the moment. Today's post was a short but sweet one today but I would love to hear what your answers would be for this question either bellow in the comments or through instagram @paganvibesonly. I love doing theses questions at the moment it makes me feel human haha. I hope you are all staying safe and I will see you all in the next post. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, I come again with another journal question for you all to think about. This one is very easy to answer because what has 2020 actually given us so far? So today's question is what do you want to achieve this year? I added 2020 because its one we could ask again next year and see how different the answer will be. For me I want to survive it. This year has been a nightmare from the virus that came out of nowhere and has changed many of our lives, to my personal problems with health ect. I feel like my personal goal that I would love to achieve is to lose as much weight as I can to make myself feel better but also to help improve my health ect. I would also love to be back at work and this virus to fuck off. I would love to be able to spend more than 5 minutes with my nan. (Dropping her shopping off) I have a goal that my flat will be tidy and I will have the ball rolling on getting rooms done up and sorted but with lock-down still about while I am writing this to some point its very hard to think ahead. I personally want to forget this year ever happened and jump start to 2021 please if thats possible. I know a lot of you are probably feeling the same way and thats completely fine but who wouldn't? This year is a horror show at the moment and we have all lost someone close to use thats connected to this virus. I am scared for all of you, for my friends and family and to everyone in the world because its such a horrid thing thats about at the moment. If I could bubble wrap everyone who I care about and protect them from this I would. So what I personally want to achieve this year is to see 2021 with all my loved ones still with me. I can't control this but its one that I would love to stay I did. I also want to achieve my end of year weight goal because thats more controllable for myself. So what would you like to achieve this year? Let me know in the comments bellow or even message me on instagram @paganvibesonly I would love to hear what you all have planned. I hope you are all staying safe and I will see you all in the next post. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, I am here again with another great question you can ask yourself to put in your journal for this week. I am personally writing theses in my journal each week and answering them in more detail than I do in here because some bits should be kept private. That being said today's question is what is one thing you want to manifest for your future self? So for me personally the one thing I would love to manifest for my future self is to be able to have a baby of my own. This will most likely be a common answer for many questions to come in the future. If you read last weeks question you have some idea what I am going through to a point. So here goes. Back in October 2019 I had this horrid scare. I had my normal period which then turned into not normal. I had been trying to get pregnant for a year and a half at this point. Not fully timetable focused but focused while working our busy lives. We had this thought it will happen when it happens but to try anyway. So back to October 2019 were this 3 to 4 week period happened and I was taken to the doctors to get it checked. They gave me tablets to stop the bleeding as it wasn't normal. I did all the tests needed to know what was wrong with me. I remember this one doctor calling me up at 6.30 at night with my results and said to me that I may have a form of cancer on my ovaries. This was 3 weeks before christmas and I died inside. I burst into tears and didn't stop until my partner came home after work. The doctor has also said because of this I may never have children. Fast forward to my first official appointment with my new specialist doctor and she gave me the best news anyone could give me that day. Not the your all clear news but the fact the other doctor fucked up. I did not have cancer at all, instead I have a common hormone problem. I wont say what I have been told I have because I am not ready to talk about that yet but I am working towards it. I was told having a baby will be hard for me because it isn't in balance and they need to work out what has caused this. They said I should lose weight because that my be a big factor which made me cry. My weight has been a big problem for me for years because it happened while I had my very dark period in my life and I haven't been able to lose it. I panicked and thought I am never getting a baby. I was going through tests ect before lock-down happened because I haven't had my period now since the full month of bleeding last year. In fact my last one was December as I had two different big bleeds. I am losing weight even in lock-down and have a focused goal. I am making a great progress so far and will continue to do so because I have my goal. When lock-down ends I will be continuing my treatment and tests and hopefully they can solve my no period problem because thats a big part that needs to work. I didn't plan on going through so much detail in this post but I have gotten people asking me what I danced around with last post and I thought that I am in the right place to talk about some of the aspects I have been dealing with. In the future there may be weeks I don't get to do my posts because of this so its better to mention it now then later. I hope I haven't scared you all off with my over sharing and that I see you all in the next post. I would love to hear what you would like to manifest for your future self too if you want to share. Stay safe everyone and dream big. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, So today's question isn't a question as such as a command. You and I will have to describe our dream life in five words. Now I won't be doing it in five words because it would be the shortest post in history. So I have decided to do five words and explain why for each word. This will also help me work out why each word means that much to my dream life. So my five words are: - Happiness, - Balanced, - Family, - House, - Friendships. So there the five words that describe my dream life, yes there very basic but they all have meaning behind them for myself. Happiness for me means having a full life surrounded by people I love and care about. No drama from family members that are no longer considered as family. Were stress isn't part of my life on a daily bases and that I can wake up and fully let myself be happy. Balanced for me means having enough money to live and save but not too much money that it will change the way I personally live. I want to be able to not worry about money anymore. It's easier said than done at this moment of time but that is one of my life goals to fully work towards. I hate worrying about money and it causes so much hurt within my household. Family for me means having my own children. I personally only want one because for me that would be a blessing. I have been having problems with that side of things since last October and I do feel like its going to take a lot of hard work to get that little baby me and my partner want. It hurts me not being able to become a mum because its all I personally ever wanted. So for me thats a dream life. House for me connects with my word above. I live in a flat at the moment which I own and its perfect for what I need at this moment of time. That being said I would love to own my own house that I could bring up my own family in. A garden for me to work in and connect with mother earth and an attic for my witchy space would be heaven. I can picture having little kids running around my home and that just puts a smile on my face. Friendships for mean is a big thing. I have some amazing friends in my life that accept me for me but I don't have many witchy friends that I can connect with. I have Jemma who is amazing and I love her to bits and if she lived closer I could so she her being my witchy best friend. In my dream life I would probably have her living closer to me. I would also have my own space were others like us could connect. It wouldn't be a coven as such as a tea shop with a witch haha. It's just something that puts a smile on my face thinking about. Anyway thats my five words for my dream life what are yours? Let me know either in the comments bellow or through instagram @paganvibesonly. I love hearing from you all and it would make the world to me if you could up with your own. Anyway I do hope you enjoyed today's post and that you and your family are staying safe. I will see you all in the next post. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x Merry meet everyone, So I have decided to start a new mini series of posts that is all about answering questions like the post is named. This is to realise what needs to me done but also what we hold dear that we may not realise at this moment of time. I got this set of universal love affirmations deck with my soul and spirit magazine and it gave me this idea while going through them that they would make great posts. These cards are a bit like journal prompts that I thought would help me connect with you all more but also a way for us to answer theses questions together? I would love to hear your answers either through the comments bellow or through instagram @paganvibesonly. I may even create a post for you to be able to comment on. That being said this post will be longer that the others as they will be a series of short but sweet posts. So what else feed my soul personally? While being on lock-down I have felt a little lost at times. I haven't been able to spend the time I want with my close family because they live away from me. So I have been trying to focus on other aspects that I could make myself feel whole. So I have been getting back into my crafts, things that I put on hold while busy with work because it seemed to never be important. Painting in watercolour is one of the most relaxing but soul healing things I could ever do. This makes me feel happy when I see the final outcome. I have posted one or two on my instagram but I feel happy just spending an hour doing this. Another thing that feeds my soul is working on any aspect of my witchy path. Working in my book of shadows makes me feel complete, working in my tarot journal each morning has made me feel like I have done something worth while. Working on my witchy storage and my altar makes me feel soo happy. I have even decided to redo the whole of my display inside to better work with what I need it to be. Theses things may be simple in its own right but has made me feel so much better being stuck inside my home. Another big one that helps me feed my soul is this blog. Working on posts to put out and focusing on something productive has helped me out so much. I have done so many posts while in lock-down that I am fully backed up for a few months. Its made me feel like I have worked even though I don't get paid doing this blog. This blog is a big feed my soul project because I spend my time working on posts, researching topics and creating theses posts just to put out there for you all. This is the big feed my soul aspect that has been feeding my soul for many years. I love doing theses posts even if I dont get paid which is why I am always so grateful for seeing my views spike up when they do. I love hearing from you all and connecting with other like minded people because it feeds my soul. So now that I have answered this question, I want to hear what feeds your souls. Could be something small to something huge whatever makes you happy while in this lock-down or even this year, I would love to hear what has gotten you through this all. Like I said before you can always contact me on instagram or even through here and I will always get back to you. Need a friendly face to listen to your problems I am here. Hope this post has given you something to think about today and as always stay safe and I will see you all in the next post. Blessed be x PaganVibesOnly x |
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