Hey all,
Hope you all had a great christmas with your loved ones. This is only a small post to keep all updated and also to keep my one post a week up haha. I plan on doing a pagan haul on new years day with all that I got for christmas. I would of done it sooner but been in work all week and today was busy doing normal adult jobs around the house :') Anyway working over the weekend too so the next day off is new years day :O So keep your eyes peeled for that post because its going to be a fab one. Also I am going to look on my work timetable and see if theres a day each week that I am not in so I can make that my main posting day. It may not happen and I may have to work out my time more effective but thats my plan as well. So far my posts have been once a week about whatever is on my mind. Now I want to see if I can push that to two posts a week but knowing my month ahead of me that probably may be quite hard. I also want to start my rant posts back up where I just rant on about the world and my views on somethings in the news that week. I normally do anyway but somethings are worth more than just a small rant in a random post. The world we live in needs to change and its not going to be easy to do so. Anyway thats my small update and random fluff from my brain haha. I will be working on the new years day post when I can and make sure that nothing is missed. I also plan on doing a pagan book haul like thingy, showing you all the books I have in my collection some new some old but all what I use a lot. Anyway See you later :) MissDoOmie Hey all,
So yesterday was yule, the longest night before it starts getting light again. It is my christmas day but i only celebrate that on my own. My family follow different believes if any so its a time for me to reflect and thank the gods and goddesses for my safe year and for them looking after me and my family. Now yesterday wasn't a good day, I couldn't stay at home and do my day long thing I normally do for yule because I was in work. That was fine for me because I can do most of it today on my day off. What I didn't like was the fact while I was in work there was a shooting down my work street. It effected me strangely because I went to a very dark place and panicked. The area the shooting was in was the way my nan was walking to get her bus before I went to work and I was only in work about half an hour when it happened. It didn't hit us as a shop until the police was starting to corner off the area so people couldn't walk and take the samples they needed for their case sort of thing. For our safety we closed our shop for an hour until someone from our work said it was fine to open again. But it shuck me. Our town is a small quite town where nothing big ever happens and for me having the shooting happen just outside down the street from our shop shuck me. Who in the right mind would shoot someone? It's really busy in our town because christmas is coming and people are still getting their stuff ready and kids where out and about and someone shot this person in daylight where kids are about. I just don't understand what the hell this person was thinking. He probably wasn't to shoot someone in the first place! I relaxed once I found out that my whole family was safe and that the people who were shot where fine with minor injury's and were taken to the hospital. I knew the police were outside our shop so we were safe and we continued to work like normal. But it hit me today that if I wasn't in work and I was out in town with my nan like normal on this day we might of been shot. Because we walk past that area all the damn time and thats scary. I thank my lucky angels who were watching down on us that it didn't happen to us because I just don't know what I would do. It shuck me to my core and now all I can think about is the fact that it happened in our town before christmas on my yule. Anyway I am fine, the people shot will survive and the shooter will get caught. I should focus on the positives because thats all we have. Speak to you all later. MissDoomie x Hey all,
Now I've been trying to live a positive life full of acceptance and positive thinking. Thats easier said than done. After living my life with so much hate and so much painful negative thinking surrounding me that sometimes that seeps in on my good mood. Today is one of those days. The image above I took over the summer and it reflects how I feel at the moment. The beauty is still there but with decay surrounding it either because its meant to be or because of actions taken to create that way. Now my life isn't meant to be full of hurt and pain it just isnt. I say its not so its not! So what can I do to change this? Well I went to someone and talked my feelings away. That helped a lot. It also helped me figure out where the pain comes from and in some aspect deal with this. But then again its not working today. Now I was talking to my nan today about something silly and this negative force came over me because of one thing. I let it happen. Not on purpose but because I thought out this person who in my mind is my negative force. Through out my life their being in my life was the negative force that caused me problems, pain, heart break. So why am I thinking about this person why now and why today? It could be the fact that around this time of year I think about how happy we may of been in the past or what they could be doing at this moment of time. Or it could be the fact I saw someone in town today talk to their daughter like this person talked to me. Brought back bad memories. I am not in a dark place anymore to be honest I haven't been for months now. But that doesn't mean I am not human, I miss people, I love people who hurt me, I wear my heart on show so people can see. I care too much for people and for most of the time its my super power but its also my downfall. Does this mean I have to live as a robot? always hiding my feelings from people, living inside a giant bubble that protects me? No. Instead I welcome pain, I welcome people to try and hurt me. Not because I like it but because that is part of who I am. I deal with shit, I deal with negatives and try with all my might make it positive. I have lived this way my whole life. People treated me differently because I was the outcast. The one who is always down, or hurt by the world. See me smiling now because I see through people. Not all the time but I am good at seeing what people want, may be its the drama people eat up or they just love causing problems for people I dont really care. Because at the end of the day I will be standing there wearing a smiling face. People have tried to take me apart, tried to nit pick hurt me, tear me down and kick me until I bled. Tried to turn my friends against me. Yet here I stand. Fighting for what I want. I wont stop and thats just makes me ME! Haha anyway hope you enjoyed my rant. See ya next time :) MissDoomie x Hey all,
So the last couple of days I have been really ill, it was getting me down and that was because I couldn't do much. So when my very first Pagan parcel was delivered this morning it was a really good cheer up. Now I did mention that I was getting the sabbat one to try and see if I like it before I try others. That's because Yule is coming up and for me I never really celebrated it because of many reasons but I thought this year I will celebrate it because I always wanted to but never really got round to doing so. I did when I was younger but I can barely remember that and the person I did it with wasn't the best influence. Anyway I took loads of pictures so you can see whats in this months box and what I received. First of all the impressions I got opening this box was like christmas had came early. I love the two/three kits that came with this box I love how simple and easy pagan parcel made them. The box smelt wonderful even if I can only smell out of one side of my nose at the moment :') Basically what I got in this box was the following: - White pillar candle (I call it a church candle) - Yule prosperity ball kit - Yule herb sachet kit - Yule starter kit - Yule green man card (blank) - Stamford Frankincense and myrrh incense cones. - Yule wooden log with three holes cut into it for the three candles that came with it. (green, red and white candles) - Altar decorations. - Herb tea light - Yule incense and coal discs. I am really looking forward to having time to make theses kits and I will do a post about each kit once I do them and talk about the kit more. I also will do a post about my yule altar. I really am looking forward to decorating my altar because I didnt have one for my samhain in october so this is going to be fun. I also can't wait to talk to you more about things that I have gotten for next year and I have them already just need to do the post. Anyway Hope you enjoyed todays post and If I have time over the weekend I will do an extra post this week as I have so much I want to talk about at the moment. Until next time :) MissDoomie |
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